| If I had only made this decision with my head and not my irrational heart, I wouldn't have been in this position. I wouldn't have to do this during midterms week.
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| I am getting more miserable everyday. So many expectations, so much to juggle, so little time. I feel like the power and beauty of my youth has been used to the fullest potential and it's about to run out. I am like a sponge that has absorbed so much and now all the energy is being sucked right out of me.
I never go to bed happy anymore. I wake up and never fully get up. I never mean what I say anymore.
When will I ever get what I want? What do I even want?
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| Canvassing is interesting because you learn so much about humanity. Since last summer, I've witnessed some of the worst parts of society. However, I keep telling myself that it will all be worth it once I meet someone with a big heart and a beautiful smile. Today was not one of those days and it definitely took a toll on me. As I was about to break down in tears today, some guy told me, "For every ten doors you knock on, you will get nine people who say 'no.'" Out of the ten doors that I knocked on today, five of those doors would not open, four of those doors were slammed in my face, and only one of them was welcoming. That is all figuratively speaking.
On some days, I meet some of the best people. On other days, I might not be so fortunate. This whole week, I've witnessed the real side of society. It's heart breaking, but I had to finally face reality.
It makes me realize that I should start thinking with my head and not my heart.
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| I miss you to the end of the world and back. Not a day goes by when I don't think about you. I keep telling my friends about you and I wish they could all meet you. You are one in a million.
It's been almost two years and I think I'm handling it a lot better than I used to...
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